He asks how I can take it
How I can handle our being apart so long
When it’s driving him insane
“It’s simple, because I know you’ll be back, because I’m happy to just talk to you, that we can still even talk makes me happy. Memories.”
There’s a pause for a minute and I feel like an idiot, thinking of how simple-minded I must have sounded
He says he thinks of memories too but the gap still seems so long
I say I don’t think of how much longer it is,
I just take it
Day
By
Day
By
Day
I don’t say that I think of you almost constantly
I don’t say how I pretend that you aren’t so far away
I don’t say how I look forward to getting home to see if you’ve said anything
I don’t say how when I look at the time I automatically calculate what time it is where you are too
I don’t say that I wonder what your doing, if you’re thinking all these things too
I don’t say how in the throngs of people passing I sometimes look and hope to see you there knowing full well you aren’t but hoping anyway
I don’t say how sometimes I just want to run off and go see you
and I don’t say how sometimes I imagine what would happen if I ever did
I don’t say how weird I think I am for thinking all this
How I wish we didn’t have to hang up
But I don’t say that
I just say “I love you too”
And listen for the click
And pause a moment to be sure
Then I hang up too
But I don’t say